SUZI F. GARCIA
Make Me a Carly Rae Mixtape
2012 was a simpler time, y’know? As long as you stuck to Netflix & Dairy Queen it was,
anyway. I just don’t have the energy
to care anymore about anything
except two cats & the progression
of the spider web on the corner of the ceiling above
my bed. I have never seen the spider which makes me think one day I’ll awaken,
cocooned myself. But as long as the internet connection holds out, I should be okay.
Listen, I’m just trying to run an Incan Empire here, ok?
Rebuild a manmade lake in the dip of my mattress without any success. My shoulders curl and like
parchment, I brittle and break. Tomorrow I will MAC mask, because I’ve been watching a lot of
tutorials and a metallic lip to cut may just give me the bravery to face a sunshine state.
go ’head, I’m ready for my close-up now.
We Lost Sight of Our Guarantees but Stock up on Fireworks Anyway
this is an underground city kind of situation, let’s lean into it.
we’re not worried about loss of fire, re-invented snow as a way to create
warmth. our anthems are plural, spelled out
in air patterns made by the movements of our feet, hips, hoola hoop style.
we code new, lipstick letters in royal purple today,
dance across the bricks made of spit, breast milk, mud, mixed w/artificial glow.
we provide our own afterlife, and darlings you can join us. dorothy, our mother,
her homecoming patriarchal propaganda, carried nothing but her
feet alone. skipping out of frame to direct, a new call to keep on
keepin’ on, no turning back, ease on til every empire usurped.
Someone wrote on the wall of the church
The Emancipation of Suzi G
But here I am still.
Swimming in heels, going through the motions
After all, you’ll always be a part of me.
Godiva in champagne, keep an eye out for sunglasses that make me
a honeybee. Because what’s more
poetic than glitter, than a soft filter wedding?
So I’m making a new playlist, I’ll hit shuffle.
We’ll jukebox until
the body exhausts,
once I heard we could bring salvation back.
I scroll, I invoke—
(who said that?)
Oh oh honey you got me hooked on you.
Suzi F. Garcia has an MFA in Poetry with minor Gender Studies and Screen Cultures. Suzi is a Poetry Editor at Noemi Press and a lecturer at the University of Michigan. She love you like XO, and her work can be found at the Offing, Pinch Journal, Reservoir, and more.